Sputnik sweetheart Murikami explaines creativness

pg 85
'But I couldn't love her'

Here in this passage K is describing his love for Sumire. He tells the reader thaht Sumire is the love of his life. He can't possibly love anyone else. There is an interesting contrast between his relationship with the woman, who he has just had sex with (who, coincidentially is married) who tells him that he is the only one she loves, and his thoughts on Sumire. I intended for the readers to see the desparatness of K's love, a love for of barriers and complexities, a one-sided, doomed love. Within K's narration is encapsulated a despair so deep, because with all other women there seems to be an awkwardness, undoubtedly because he can't forget Sumire, in a way, here, irony is introduced. He feels he 'need's Sumire, he needs the woman he loves, love is not a luxury, at the end of the passage, 'or I wouldn't be able to survive.